Is there a common age when people decide to change careers? Is there a common reason? Boredom, lack of opportunity, frustration, better pay?
Every year at this time I think; I am done with this job. I am tired of the headache, the politically correct b.s. that goes with it, the behavior, and the lack of respect. Then summer vacation starts and I get between 10 and 12 weeks off. The previous years problems fade and I know, I just know, it’s going to be better in the fall.
This year I am not so sure. This year feels different. Maybe it’s because this year was particularly rough on every level. Maybe it’s because I don’t have a regular route to go back to next fall. Maybe it’s time to do some serious thinking about where I will be in 10 years if I choose to continue like this. When I turn 60 do I want to be worried about not having health insurance? Do I want to got to work even when I am sick?
I have never been very good at making big decisions. I think and think, but find it hard to come to a conclusion. I’m afraid of making the wrong choice and not being able to go back. Prime example; last year, giving up one of the best bus routes I ever drove. I regret doing it. I had great kids (most of the time) and I only had to deal with high school kids in the afternoon. Now I have nothing set up for this fall. I will have to take whatever route will be available come August. I believe that is one of the reasons I am contemplating a change. I love driving a bus and I actually do love the little ones and their energy. I just can’t handle the two together anymore.
This is going to be the summer of researching and soul-searching. My brain keeps returning to ten years ago when I had a brief couple of weeks where I knew what I wanted to do. It was just impossible at that time because I couldn’t quit a full-time job to do it. The time might now be right to start that journey. It will be slow, no doubt about that. There won’t be any major changes for a while, but it will give me a light at the end of the tunnel to keep driving towards.