Positive Vs. Negative; Which Attitude Is Easier To Maintain?

Some people are just naturally happy.  They bubble over with “Have a sunshiny day(s)” in the middle of monsoon season while the rest of us are searching for any sign of the big yellow orb that brings warmth.   Their happiness does not rub off on you.  In fact it makes you want to give them a good whack upside the head.  Just because.

On the flip side, some people are just naturally miserable.  They could win a million dollars a week for life and their response will be. In a Eeyore voice “Wonderful, now I’ll have to find some way to spend it.”  That person will never be happy and there is no use trying. Though offering to help spend some of that money might help your outlook.

I am curious about the rest of us so-called normal people.  The ones that go through life’s ups and downs.  The ones who condemn Monday mornings and rejoice on Friday afternoons.  Which attitude is easier to keep going?  And why?

Personally I am fighting to maintain a positive frame of mind and not doing so well.  The sitting quietly not thinking helps but only very short-term. Reading positive affirmations makes me want to flip the paper off and yell a big “F” you at the page.  Being in this frame of mind does not make me beautiful inside and out. I am not a loving person that people want to be around, and I will not do great things today.  Let’s face it; that aint the way my days normally go.  Still…

I get up every morning and start my day hoping good things will happen. Telling myself if I put a smile on my face, be thankful for what I do have, and continue to dream, things will turn around.  It’s a lot of work.

Moping around feeling bad for myself, thinking life sucks, hating everything, and finding fault with all around me is not hard to do.  In fact it is much easier than thinking positive, BUT it is only getting me more negative everything.

So this morning brings a new fight to find the illusive positive attitude and keep it going through the day.  I could use a lot of help so anyone who has made it this far, please send me as much positive energy as possible.

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The Liebster Award



Around March 17, nicolaleonie, at Tenthousandladybirds graciously nominated me for the Leibster Award.  I was not purposely avoiding the challenge. In fact it has been bothering me that I did not follow through yet.  Yes I am kind of weird like that.  So here goes.

The Liebster Award is for blogs with under 200 hundred followers.  For some that would be disappointing.  For me it makes things more personal.  Sort of like your favorite band playing in a small club compared to Gillette Stadium.  A much stronger connection.

Since I have chosen to accept this prestigious award I must follow a few rules.  They are as follows:

1. Acknowledge the blogger who nominated you and display the award.
2. Answer 11 questions the blogger gives you.
3. Give 11 random facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 11 blogs you think are worthy of the award (but they must have less than 200 followers).
5. Let the bloggers know you nominated them.
6. Give them 11 questions to answer.


1. Thank you nicolaleonie at Thenthousandladybirds  The award is proudly displayed front and center when you first arrived.

2. The questions:
1. What made you want to start your blog? I don’t think I ever “wanted to” start.  I think I needed to.  People had been telling me for a while that I needed to have a blog for when I would rant and rave about something that was irking me that day. I took their advice, even though I think they just wanted me to shut up and go away.
2. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you be? I have been contemplating this recently. Not because I can afford to just live anywhere I want, but because I want to be able to afford to just live anywhere I want.  The answer is by the ocean. Since I have only experience with the Atlantic my place would be somewhere on the East Coast.  After the long 6 month winter we just had I think south of here would be good. Possibly the Carolina’s or northern Georgia coast.
3. Who would you like to play you in the movie of your life? Sandra Bullock.  Don’t know why, but she just pops into mind right away.
4. What’s the last book you read? No last yet, I’m still alive and reading.  The one I most recently finished was Hunting The Moon by Becca Boucher.  If that link doesn’t work Go to Amazon and find it.  Well worth it.
5. Favourite time of day?  4:15 P.M.
6. What is your earliest memory? My father bringing me to a Hula Hoop contest at Webster Square Plaza and not letting me stay to the end because I was too little.  Mind you if I remember this correctly my mother had just had my younger brother, which would have made me four years old at the time.  Imagine the nerve of my dad being a parent and not letting me stay out late.
7. What would you say is your biggest achievement in life so far? Four grown children who are not currently incarcerated.
8. What is your greatest fear? Life totally passing me by.
9. Which of your physical features would you say is the best? My eyes
10. What is your guilty pleasure? I’ll never tell.
11. What’s your fancy dress costume of choice? Not sure what that means so I will pass and go to one of the “just for luck” questions.
What is your happiest memory? Holding my new babies for the first time. 

11 Random Facts About Me

1.    I don’t remember what my hair color used to be.
2.    I love love love chocolate.
3.    My OCD is getting worse as I get older.
4.    I love being near the water, but do not swim.
5.    I wanted to have 12 children.
6.    I would love to live in a motor home and drive around the country going to concerts.
7.    I hate shopping.
8.   I’m not very girly.
9.   I miss riding my motorcycle.
10. I love a good ole fashioned book in my hands.
11. My husband is the love of my life.

I am having a hard time finding blogs with less than 200 readers, so i will just ask some questions and anyone who would like to answer can do so.  I refuse to keep this in my drafts any longer.

1. Do you remember your very first love?
2. What is your dream vehicle?
3. What song best describes you?
4. What is the most embarrassing thing you have ever done in public?
5. What is your dream job?
6. Digital reader or paper?
7. What is your favorite season?
8. Do you have a bucket list?
9. Are you best in the morning or late night?
10. Do you believe in Angels?
11. What would you request for your last meal?

So there you have it.  All that is left is spell check and a quick preview before I hit publish.  I hope I have done the award justice.


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Slacker No More

I’m sorry I have been a major slacker lately.  Not sure what the problem is exactly.  I’m exhausted both physically and mentally, my head hurts, my heart hurts, and I am so sick of this never-ending winter.  For crying out loud I should not have to be wearing four layers of clothing, in late March, to go to work in the morning.  It is just not right and I want it to stop NOW!

Ok I have that out of my system, at least for the moment, so I’m going to recap the last week and a half or so since I have been here.

1. I was awarded the Liebster Award by  over at tenthousandladybirds   I haven’t fulfilled my part of the deal yet and for that I bow my head in shame.  I will follow through tomorrow I promise.

2. I have been to at least one more funeral, possibly two since last writing.  I have lost track and feel like the whole world is dying around me.

3. I have officially declared I HATE driving elementary kids home in the afternoon.  Driving them to school in the A.M. is ok, bringing them home bites the big one.  Three more months to go. I pray for a miracle so I don’t have to go back to that in the fall.

4. I have researched aromatherapy courses.  I found one I really like online, but it cost $1,800+ .  I attended a free webinar last night and was very impressed.  Andrea is offering some great freebies to anyone who signs up by Sunday.  I really want to do this. I could meet some pretty terrific people from all over the world who have a commitment to aromatherapy and it’s benefits.  My fear is if I can come up with the down payment of $895 can I come up with the $220 a month payment?  No extra work because I don’t have a penis.  (it’s a private joke that only one reader will understand)

5. My husband who has been out of work for almost two years has enrolled in a course to help him get into a field he is REALLY passionate about.  Medical marijuana. He is so excited that people are finally realizing the benefits of this herb.  He wants to become a master grower and work in a dispensary.  He has been closely following what the states before us have done and he wants in.  Very good to see him excited over something again.

6. I took three books out of the library.  One I can’t even remember.  I know I read the parts that I wanted to, but couldn’t tell you exactly what it said.  The second was about meditation.  The benefits, different forms, and how to get started.  I couldn’t even sit still to read it.  I tried I really did, but it just wasn’t doing it for me.  Learning about meditation should not stress a person out. The third book I renewed.  It is about energy healing.  I still love that and want to pursue it further also.  First I need to get out of this negative energy that is swallowing me.  Most days I feel like I am being sucked into a black hole.  I need someone to send me a life line, but quick.

I’ll end it there for tonight.  I got this written and that was a major accomplishment on my list.  It’s now way past bedtime and my eyes are having a hard time staying open.  Tomorrow is another day.

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